Thursday, October 16, 2008
I wish someone had told me...
"Lighten up and stop taking yourself quite so seriously!"
As my daughter is changing every single day I need to sit back and enjoy the now moments! The hardest part for me is to stop constantly worrying about the future and live in the present. And by the future I don't mean when Tay's in college I am talking about 2 hours from now! "What is she gonna wear to bed, Is she going to go right to sleep or is she going to fight us-again-, when will she ever sleep in her own bed, and then this leads to beating my self up for being a lazy mom because I would rather all of us get sleep than fight putting Tay in her own bed. Then I question is it laziness or an excuse because I secretly LOVE having her cuddle with me at night! *SIGH*
Every once in a while I can kinda step outside myself and notice that the times I am laughing the loudest and smiling the biggest are the times that I am truly focused on what is going on directly in front of me and not what is to come later on down the road! The funny thing is the times that I am truly present are the times that I remember the most. When I let my mind wander to my "to do list" then I am not capturing the precious moments that I will remember later on in life! OK..I am done being hard on myself....But I will make an honest effort to be more PRESENT in my everyday life!
Thanks for caring,