Monday, March 16, 2009
Why do I disappoint myself so much? The latest involves my j.o.b. I am not performing the way I should at work. The little things are THE things that count at my job and I am overlooking things that I shouldn't. My boss and I already had one conversation regarding my work and I left crying. (Note-I cry alot and my Aunt Flo came to visit that morning!) I vowed to "get it together" this weekend and Monday was going to be a new day and all that jazz. Well, I freaking did it again. I will not bore you with the details, just know that I am screwing up all over the place and can't seem to get it together. I came home and sobbed! I cannot remember the last time I cried like that! I cried so hard I almost threw up! You know THAT cry...you cry so hard your nose gets all clogged up and you can't breathe out of it?...That was what I was doing! Anywhoo...enough with Debbie the Downer!
Hopefully the week will get better,
Thanks for caring,
PS. Maybe my sub-conscious is sabotaging my job because I should be teaching I am just too chicken to do it!